Bag Over My Head?

One major mistake I made years ago was trying to figure out why I crossdressed.  Over the years, I came up with many different reasons.  My mistake was that I was the person trying to determine my "why".  Because of the pleasurable nature of crossdressing, I refused to accept any non-positive reasons for my actions.  When I first started researching crossdressing, much of the information I found at that time was in "abnormal psychology" books and references. There was NO WAY I could be abnormal so I rejected any information I found there.  I should have been more objective in my thinking...

Step number one for me was to stop creating my "why" because I was using my "why" to rationalize and justify my behavior.

Step two for me was to look at my actions objectively as possible. What happens when I crossdress?  Well, I try to make myself look and act like a woman as much as possible. Okay...  In order to crossdress, I use makeup, a wig, and body padding to accomplish my goal. When finished, the more my male self is hidden, the closer I get to my goal.

A few years ago, there was a football team that played very poorly for many seasons not winning very many games.  Fans would often attend home games wearing bags over their heads.  Why?  What motivates someone to go to a football game wearing a bag over their head?  They were ashamed of their teams's poor performance.  They did not want to be recognized or associated with their team.

Crossdressing is the same thing as wearing a bag over one's head.  When a man crossdresses, he does not want to be associated with men or recognized as a male.  This is not my opinion. This is what happens... But what about....

Drag Queens - There is no question that drag queens are men.  They have to be... Otherwise, "drag" doesn't make sense.

Actors - They are identified up front as men.  The better the impersonation, the better they are acting in their role.

Think about what happens when we wear a bag over over our head, wear a mask, or crossdress.  To be continued...

Free at last! Free at last! Thank God I am free at last!

I am finally free of crossdressing! No, I haven't quit. No, I haven't purged. I am just done with all of it...

The desire is gone, completely gone. It vanished some time ago but I was thinking it was merely in hiding just waiting for something to trigger it.  Not only has the desire gone, even the thought of crossdressing is now a bit repulsive... If I look at any photos of me, I wonder why I did what I did...

And it is truly liberating! I am free! However, I do have a LOT to clean up...  I have started by removing this blog's previous posts and comments.

How did I get to this point after decades of crossdressing? Over the next few days and months, I will be posting how I was able to finally liberate myself from crossdressing.