Makeup Removal

I have lost count of all the different things I have tried or used to remove makeup quickly and efficiently.  The past couple of years I have been using makeup removal towelettes. I usually used a separate eye makeup remover. 

Recently I discovered microfiber makeup removal towels.  I was very skeptical about their effectiveness.  Just put some water on the microfiber makeup removal towel and EVERYTHING comes off including eye makeup and lipstick. 

It turns out there are microfiber towels for just about anything.  I have microfiber towels in the kitchen to dry dishes and special microfiber towels to wash and dry my car.  The microfiber makeup removal towels are made specifically to remove makeup only. 

I ordered a set of three and, so far, have only used one.  It is AMAZING how quickly and effective these towels are!  I tested how much makeup was actually removed by using a makeup remover towelette after the microfiber towel.  There was no makeup on the towelette!  

Many of the online reviews say that after use, the towel is tossed into the laundry.  Personally, I think this is bad advice.  The makeup that is removed ends up in the microfibers of the towel. (The makeup has to go SOMEWHERE...)  When the towel is washed, the makeup comes out.  I don't want the removed makeup to float out into the wash water used by the clothes. Also, I don't want any dirt in the wash water being trapped in the microfibers of the towel.  

I wash the used towel after each use in the sink using a gentle soap.  The makeup comes out into the water and then down the drain. The towel is air dried and ready for use the next night. 

There are a variety of manufactures of microfiber makeup removal towels but I have only used one so far.  I do not know if others are as effective. 

Do you use microfiber makeup removal towels? If not, what makeup remover do you use?

Purging or Cleaning Out Our Closet

Why "Purging" Never Works

How many of us have cleaned out our closets and purged all of our women's clothes, shoes, wigs, jewelry, and makeup at least one time?  How many of us resumed our transformation activities?  How many of us are permanently "cured"?

My first purge happened about a week before my wedding.  I thought that marriage would "cure" me forever.  It was probably about six months before I resumed.

A common definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over expecting a different outcome.  The few times I have purged, I expected that the purge would permanently "cure" me but it never happened.

There are many reasons why we purge.  A marriage or a new relationship often triggers a purge partly due to the expectation of being "cured" or maybe the inability or fear to disclose a part of ourselves that should be disclosed. Sometimes a purge comes from a wife threatening a divorce or a girlfriend's threat to end the relationship. I have encountered several of these ultimatums over the years.  "Are your clothes more important than me?" My responses to these ultimatums were to unhook from several long-term relationships when our discussions failed to reach an agreement or compromise.

I don't think that researchers or therapists have ever asked WHY purging does not work.  Generally, the common belief is that crossdressing cannot be "cured" and it is NOT an addiction.  There has to be a GOOD reason WHY purging doesn't work.

In my opinion, here is why purging does not work:

Today's society has certain "rules", maybe "expectations" might be a better word, about men transforming themselves into women.  Generally, society is okay with men dressing as women for actors portraying women in movies or theatrical performances, wearing a Halloween costume (occasionally), or a "beautyless" pageant or event.  Outside of these, most people believe that men who transform themselves into women is unacceptable.  Reactions run from acceptance to revulsion.  Most people cannot understand why we do what we do, no matter how much education and outreach is done by us. (People can be accepting without understanding.)

One common belief we have (the CD/TG community) is that it is perfectly acceptable at any time for a man to transform himself into a woman, temporarily or permanently, with or without hormones, with or without surgeries.  Years ago someone said to me, "For crossdressers, Halloween is every day."  In other words, many people consider crossdressing not acceptable unless it is Halloween.

Now what about purging?  Let's say that I am in a relationship and I've received an ultimatum and I need to throw away or donate EVERYTHING immediately, no exceptions. Due to the extreme external pressure, everything is cleaned out from my closet.  Now the relationship is supposed to be filled with happiness and joy (and "normal")!

However, according to most research, purges do not work.  Maybe with an empty closet, the desire has been removed so victory can be declared. We all know what will happen sooner or later! The only question is "Will it be 'sooner' or 'later'?"

Doesn't an empty closet demonstrate the "cure"?  NO!

Why not? In a purge, one thing is retained. It is the belief, the interior disposition, that it is okay and perfectly acceptable for men to transform themselves into women at any time for any reason.  Therefore, it is okay and acceptable for me to transform myself into a woman at any time. My purge will not be successful because I will continue to believe this.

For my purge to be successful, there needs to be a fundamental change in my belief that it is NOT acceptable for a man to dress as a woman if it isn't Halloween.

For example, I do not consider crossdressing or living as a woman as being sinful.  Many people (including my ex-spouse) consider crossdressing as sinful. If I continue to believe that crossdressing is not sinful after a purge, my purge will not be successful.  For my purge to be successful, I need to affirm and believe that crossdressing is sinful for me and others.

There may be some men in the community who believe that crossdressing is sinful but they still crossdress. The sinfulness causes shame and guilt and potentially triggers repeated purges.

I have been in a relationship where my girlfriend thought that crossdressing was okay with her. However, it was NOT acceptable for me as her boyfriend. (NIMFF -- Not in my family or friends)
 
My recommendation to anyone considering to purge is to examine and question their fundamental beliefs and if they continue to believe that crossdressing is okay, then do NOT purge.  If the pressure to purge is external, that is from a spouse or partner, then I think there should be an honest discussion about one's fundamental beliefs and why purges rarely work.
 

AMA #3 -- Advice on choosing and buying wigs?

Ask Me Anything #3

Do you have any advice on choosing and buying wigs?

I purchased my first wig from an advertisement in a newspaper.  I think it cost only $15 or $20. I was  very happy that I finally had a wig!  Unfortunately, it was horrible!  I don't know what it was made of but it looked like a mess after wearing it several times. My next two wigs were given to me by a friend of mine because he didn't like how he looked wearing them. These two wigs were inexpensive but they held their style through many wearings.

If you've never purchased a wig before, you need to measure your head to determine what size you need. Wigs come in Petite, Average, and Large sizes. Most wigs are Average size. However, you may need a Large size.  

Next, you need to determine exactly what you need in a wig. Are you going to be wearing it every day? Are you going out in public? Are you able to store it without having to hide it somewhere?

It seems like most "first" wigs bought are blond,straight hair down partway to the middle of the back. These wigs may be "sexy", but they are impractical and difficult to maintain.  

Finally, is there a particular style you like? What is your natural hair color? What hairstyles do you see on women your own age?  

Hair styles are classified as Short, Medium, Long and Curly, Wavy, or Straight. Which is right for you? Many on-line vendors of wigs have information to help you determine what styles would look good on you based upon your face shape.  

The reason why you should select wigs having a color close to your own hair is because the color of your eyebrows match the color of your hair. If you buy a wig with a different color than your natural hair, you need to color your eyebrows to look natural. A blonde wig with dark black eyebrows does not look right at all.

On-line vs. Retail

I have purchased wigs both in retail stores and on-line. The advantage of buying a wig in a retail wig store is the ability to try on various wigs before purchasing them. They will be very helpful in determining size, shape, and color that works best for you.  Also, the retailer will do professional styling and shaping for your face before you buy your wig. I have had very good experience and okay experience buying wigs retail. Not all retail wig stores want business from the transgender community. Others are very transgender friendly.  I recommend calling a wig retailer first before going to their store.

On-line Shopping

There are advantages and disadvantages of buying a wig on-line. First, there is almost an infinite number of styles, quality, colors, shapes, and sizes available. Second, the prices are usually lower than retail. There are some disadvantages.  First, what is the vendor's return policy? I have returned or exchanged several wigs and have no problems with the larger on-line vendors.  Second, the color you see on your screen may not match the real color of the wig.  If you plan on purchasing several wigs, I recommend you buy a color swatch from the vender. The swatch has small samples of hair in all the available colors.  This helps you to better match your natural hair color. Third, the wig quality isn't determined by the vendor but rather the wig maker. Several of the larger wig makers have two or more different product lines with similar styles, one inexpensive and the other more expensive. 

Cautions!

First, there are a number of vendors selling wigs on e-Bay. I have purchased several wigs on e-Bay but overall I haven't been very satisfied mostly because what the wig looks like in the picture wasn't exactly what I received. These wigs may be "knock-offs" or similar.  

Second, there are a number of wig retailers selling wigs directly from China. This wigs are often identical copies of retail wigs. I purchased one wig because it was a "Large" size which I couldn't find anywhere else. When I received the wig, it was labeled "Large" on the box and there was a "Large" tag sewn into the cap. However, it was NOT a large wig.  Fortunately, I was able to modify the wig cap to a large size. I won't buy from this vender any more because of deceptive packaging.  

I found one vendor in China that will custom make a wig for you. You need to design everything about your wig, size, cap, type of wig hair, style, color, length, etc. I have not purchased anything from this vendor because I have no idea about the quality of the wig I'm purchasing.  

Accessories

Most vendors have a large inventory of accessories and supplies. I recommend buying wig clips or a hair band to fasten the wig to your head. Depending upon how you will be storing your wig, I recommend buying a styrofoam wig head for when you are not wearing you wig. Buy a good quality wig comb and wig brush. Do NOT use a normal hair brush or comb ever!  I purchased a set of wig combs from Sally's Beauty Supply. The different types of wig combs help with styling wigs in different ways. Finally, there are a number of wig shampoos, wig conditioners, wig sprays of all types.  Some are good while others are a waste. This is where buying a wig retail will help. Remember, you will have to shampoo your wig so be prepared!

Summary

Know what you are looking for before shopping. Check out the vendor whether retail or on-line. Understand the vendor's return/exchange policy. Have fun!